A vicious cycle
I look at my life and see at as the lack of you in it. I see my ugliness and weakness. I see my shaking, nervous, inadequate self. I want those moments I once had when I was not inadequate, when I was good enough for you. I want to be back in your arms. I want to know how you feel and I want that to be as I do. I want all this shit to be over.
I wrote this over 18 months ago about someone else (although the relationship with that someone else ended 18 months before I wrote it and I finally got over it about 3 months later so maybe there's hope yet). It is appropriate again. Anyone else see a pattern emerging cos I certainly do. I hate that I continuously make the same mistakes and end up feeling the same way over and over but it just can't help it. I don't know. I don't know how to stop making this mistake. I don't know how to make him love me.
Why do I love you so much? I would give the world for you to love me back. Even just a little bit.
- Also written 18 months ago. Also fits now. :( share this: facebook
I wrote this over 18 months ago about someone else (although the relationship with that someone else ended 18 months before I wrote it and I finally got over it about 3 months later so maybe there's hope yet). It is appropriate again. Anyone else see a pattern emerging cos I certainly do. I hate that I continuously make the same mistakes and end up feeling the same way over and over but it just can't help it. I don't know. I don't know how to stop making this mistake. I don't know how to make him love me.
Why do I love you so much? I would give the world for you to love me back. Even just a little bit.
- Also written 18 months ago. Also fits now. :( share this: facebook
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